week 0 | sunday post-execution | shinssin

[speckling]

don't judge me i like this ce art too

[ the roof of the hotel is actually quite nice to hand out on? idk if we can be here but we know it's inconsequential for right now because we lose this hotel next week. anyway, despite being more tired than madara thought he can be, he calls out: ]

Shinssin-san, you there?

[ he has good hunches, shinssin has (?)-rank presence concealment here. or something. ]

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[speckling]

Got it.

[ he was coughing enough to feel tears in his eyes, so theirs not meeting is fine by him.

whack. that doesn't stop him from backhanding shinssin though; he can fix his face after. ]

I can't wish someone else to have taken my place, you know. Not when that goes against the request of someone else who trusted me with something that difficult. So! Even I can get angry at someone wishing they were in my spot just because it might make them feel better. Might being the key word because you don't know, and it's in the past.

1/3 guess i'm just murdering your inbox

[shinssin]

[ Madara's words sting more than the searing pain on Assassin's cheek. Something snaps. ]

Then... why don't you tell me what to do?

[shinssin]

[ He snarls, ] Because I spent all this damn time trying to save the world and died just to know that I can't even save a friend. Do you know how pathetic that is? Letting people die, making the same mistakes—there's nothing I can do to change my fate. Because I already know that nothing I do will ever amount to anything!

[ He clenches his teeth, and whether the next sound is a bitter sob or laughter is hard to say. ]

I guess I really was stupid to think that I could exist without that doppelganger, huh? I should just stop trying to fool myself into thinking I'm worth a damn because if I were, then Maya would still be here!

[shinssin]

Because now I—

[ I can't go on. ]

I don't know what to do.

[ His voice cracks.

Ah, he really is pathetic.

To have the death of a girl he barely knows affect him this much. To be scolded by a boy who's stronger than he could have been when she was here...

Some Heroic Spirit he is. ]

I don't know what to do...